THIS WOMAN OF FAITH

A couple of days back...I had one of those moments where I had holy anger rise up in me... I had just been in the company of a good friend and work colleague and she had spent the better part of the day complaining and grumbling and getting all worried and worked up.. I had played the listening role all morning with a few words of encouragement here and there... Now we were on a 9-5 shift and by the time it got to 4 O'clock I was fed up... I snapped and...I heard myself say to her... "I just lost a child but I haven't lost my praise,my joy or my hope whats your excuse" You don't hear me going on and on about it..get a grip on yourself She was taken aback...I could see the effect of my words sinking in.. Oh dear she replied with a sigh...I think I am being rather ungrateful.. I have no reason to be worrying and complaining... Really I have No excuse. As I took the bus home from work I could not help but reflect on what happened I thought of all...

You know how you sometimes get that feeling of aloneness You go through the motion that nobody understands what you are going through or nobody has experienced what you are experiencing You look at this faith walk and you are tempted to give up To stop believing,To stop Hoping,To stop Confessing and Sowing I am reminded of Elijah in the bible..He went through a similar period in his life,He told God,I am the only one...I am the only who hasn't compromised The only one who hasn't stopped believing in you for a Miracle,The only one who hasn't bowed to the pressures that are mounting on me...The only one still confessing you...I am the only one. Isn't it so encouraging when God reminds us that we are not alone.. God told Elijah...See you are not alone...there are 7,000 People who haven't bowed,Who haven't stopped Believing,who are walking this faith walk with you... I can imagine strength,hope and faith welling up in him..I can just see him determi...

I have never had to struggle for want of what to write but I have literally spent the past minutes just staring at my screen.... where do I start from is the issue at hand How do I compress the faithfulness of GOD to me in just a post...hmmmm.. I turn 28 today..yet it seems I have been here longer.. I marvel at the quality and the richness of my life.. The wealth of experience and all that God has invested in me... For all his many blessings,For his favour and his Presence  Lord for all these and more..I say thank you I woke up today with gratitude,with a heart full of praise...God has been Good to me.. I take a walk down memory lane and I go back 15 years  to a time when I first accepted Jesus. What I am most grateful for is this decision I made to follow hard after JESUS A lot of times I failed Him,strayed away,messed up,blew my chances But His mercy never ceased and  I kept seeking and running after him.. I have come a long way 15 years later,I still l...

I am not much of the gardening type as much as I love flowers and pot plants, It takes quite a bit of an effort for me to give the flowers and pot plants in my front yard the attention they deserve... but I must admit they add such beauty and charm to my front yard. lately I have just been too pre-occupied with all that has been happening in my life and around me to even notice that I have plants to feed and nurture.. 2 weeks ago I noticed that they had all withered and the leaves were dry,brittle and falling,especially with the summer.. I sighed in regret..if only I wasn't too consumed with myself maybe my lovely front yard would have been preserved. I gave up,maybe it was too late to salvage the situation. I might just try I said to myself and see what difference it makes.. I set out a couple of days ago to water the plants...I had just a small bowl of water.. and as I went back inside to get more water..I got distracted and never got round to fully watering the...

News..... What comes to mind any time someone says I have news for you? News...hmmmm I remember a few months ago I was told the outcome of my daughter's test results and the doctor said..I am afraid it is not great news.. Two things come to mind every time you are told you have news Two things...FEAR or FAITH... Fear of the known or Unknown or Faith in the one who Knows it all. Last week...the same words I heard months ago were repeated again.. Stella am so sorry but it is not great news.. It took a while for the enormity of the news to sink in. But as it sunk,I was overcome with emotion I struggled to hold back tears..not again Lord.. I looked at the report before me and I could sense fear rising.. What was I going to do.. who was I going to believe I could hear the holyspirit reminding me of God's promises That affliction would not arise a second time.. I could hear the enemy saying..but you trusted and had faith but where is the result of your faith.....

As I sat by the beautiful sea I couldn't help but feel God's presence.. I could Feel his peace enveloping me I remember months back I had fought God's peace In the hospital...As I held my almost lifeless baby I could feel the peace of God overshadowing me and I laughed within me..as the tears poured down I said lord I know what you are trying to do and I don't want your peace... No...I wasn't willing to accept his Peace.. Today I am thankful to the holyspirit for not taking his peace away God knew how much I needed it.. and as a faithful,Patient Dad,He enveloped me in his loving arms and gently soothed me with his comforting Words... He said child...Its going to be ok It sure doesn't make sense but trust me I am in control I know you hurt...but believe me THIS TOO SHALL PASS Peace,thank you lord for your Peace Peace that surpasses all understanding It is your peace that keeps me strong It is your peace that keeps me hopeful It is your p...

This Past week was pretty hard... Every day was a struggle, a struggle to get up, a struggle to stay strong  a struggle to keep smiling Only God knows the hurt and pain I have to endure.. A Colleague asked me how my little one was and I told him.. His reply..".It doesn't make sense" and I paused and I thought.....truly it doesn't make sense The Pop up animal baby book I bought weeks ago only just arrived and as I browsed through the pages, I couldn't help but hold back a tear.. It just doesn't make sense And as I turned and tossed in bed late at night I couldn't help but let out the well of tears I restrained all day.. I miss my baby..I miss her coos..I miss her so much, This does not make sense at all... Some days are harder than the others.. but It is on days like this that God gives more grace It is at times like this that I pour out my heart to the lord and Ask to see through his eyes because my vision is blurred with tears And my...