THIS WOMAN OF FAITH

Wow...I just love this faith walk, when things Like this happen I just know for sure that my heavenly father is looking down on me with a big grin saying . Who's the Boss huh?am the boss..God sure has a sense of Humour! I still can't explain it... I have sat looking at the letter over and over again but still...the only thing that comes to mind is how Unsual and uncommon this favour is... Your itching to know right...ha ha you can tell am in very high spirits.. I just finished dancing my famous Booty Dance for the lord Hallelujah to His name.. I recently got a job I had been praying for(how I got it is another days post) A very big platform and a stepping stone to the launch of my career and 3 weeks into the job I had a family emergency and I had to take a leave..hmmm.. This job was a fixed temporary contract running for 1 year  subject to a 6 months probation and all that  and here I was away from work only after 3 weeks on the Job.. The family em...

As I sat listening to the words of the song by Deitrick Haddon ;He is Able. It hit me...did I really believe that he was able could he really do what he said he could and even if he could, would He? By the time the song reached the" don't give up on God" part I was already in tears. You know how you have prayed and fasted believed and confessed and praised in thanskgiving yet it begins to seem as if God hasn't heard. You have hoped and trusted but the change still feels a far off, You have anticipated and expected but yet no sign of manifestation. . Ah giving up on God can be very subtle O that unspoken or unexpressed doubt that little hesitation, the sigh, that is seen in our expression The gradual acceptance that oh maybe this is not going to work maybe it is or is not God's will yeah..the Maybe's As I poured out my heart the holy spirit resounded  this to me Don't give up on God..He is not A man that he should lie He is Able t...

Today is one of those days when I just feel like staying in bed all day and doing nothing I feel like closing my eyes and willing all my struggles and challenges away I don't want to be strong today.. I don't want to be inspired,encouraged or motivated I just want to stay put and pretend that life was a fairy tale Yes...I know what you are thinking... were you not talking faith the other day and sounding so strong and mighty... Yes I know..... Truth is....I would not always feel like a victor every day.. but it doesn't change the fact that I am. Some days may feel harder and more daunting than some but am going to brace up..draw strength from the saviour and face IT I may not feel all happy and motivated,but the joy of the lord which is not dependent on my mood,feeling or circumstance would add a spring to my steps. I may feel like running away and not facing the world, but HE would carry me when I can't carry on..His strength is perfect. So....inst...

Shutting my eyes I can vividly remember every time someone has tried to discourage me from launching out or dreaming big based on someone else's experience or failure... sometimes it has been said unconsciously,without even thinking... The moment you mention your intention and desires,there is always someone who is ready with an example of someone else's story... Who says I have to apply 10 times before I get a visa to a foreign country Who says I have to have a god-father before I get that dream job Who says I have to attend 5 interviews and receive 5 rejections before I get the job Who says I have to wait and wait,fall into wrong hands and then learn from my mistakes before I eventually  find my prince charming.. Who says I have to have connections to get ahead in life... My case is different... I am not a statistic...my case is different The fact that it happened to 4 or 6 people you know doesn't mean it would happen to me my c...

I couldn't believe my eyes... I stood staring at the result board as hot tears formed in my eyes.. this is not me...this is not true.. Fail... That wasn't all. Repeat the year was boldly written on the remark that followed yes..me of all people...I began to go over my past academic feats, like Paul in the Phil 3:5-6 I began to list to myself the fact that I was considered a brain, I was assistant head girl, I was this and I was that...But it didn't change the big Repeat the year that was staring back at me... hmmmm... I had failed! every day for the next couple of years the image of a failure was presented to me by my mind's eye.. I would walk on the road and feel every one was looking at me saying here comes the girl that failed...O the shame, I felt it every day... every stare, every remark..for me was laced with the belief that every one knew I had failed. I could hear them saying in my mind" I thought she was intelligent yet she failed her first...

Do you ever get the feel that people are looking at you, analysing your situation and in their minds are saying to themselves eyah...poor girl. Do you sometimes catch that look in the eyes of people, I mean that look of pity and sympathy Like your case is so bad and their lives were perfect without any challenges? Of recent I have had people come around me with the mind of starting a "PITY PARTY" they start off with words like, "It must be really hard for you", "how are you coping"..."this is really tough"... No time to spend moaning and complaining and asking questions like God why me,...why is my life like this, why did this happen and why didn't that happen.. No time to sit down and entertain such people and such thoughts.. who cares if when they look at me they can't see past the trials and see the testimony who cares if all they see is the test instead of the treasure, who cares if what they see is bleakness and hopelessne...

HA...today I remembered what my dear friend Ko and I called the "Jericho principle" sometimes I really feel like shouting...I don't mean the fancy hoot we ladies let out..I mean a real loud shout...well I am not going to yell out before my neighbours call the police, but even if it means me shouting under my pillow...I will shout... I will shout at every situation that has made me cry, I will shout at those times when I felt inadequate, unloved, ashamed and alone I will shout at every doctor's report that is inconsistent with Gods word I  will shout at every bank statement that has had a zero balance in it I will shout at every wall, every mountain, every challenge that has told me I can't when God has said I can... I will shout at every negative voice that has spoken concerning my destiny and future.. I will shout at every door that has closed against me... I will look failure in the eyes and shout at IT. It takes gr...

Today I have spent some time remembering... thinking and reflecting on the goodness of the lord.. I remember when I first got married...the first house we got had a very tiny single bed, hubby and I were only too glad to leave our shared accommodation so we had no complaints..., I remember the times when we were so broke and we couldn't even afford to top up our electricity... I remember when we searched and searched for even the most menial of jobs and all we got was "sorry your application is unsuccessful".... I remember when doors of opportunities seemed like they had closed on us and it felt like things were never going to get better.. I remember crying when I first realised I was pregnant....how are we going to afford a baby I kept saying to myself.. The list goes on and on... whatever was a challenge to us then is a thing of the past now...God provided...from a new car, to a luxury house,to choice jobs,to great doors of opportunities,to food on our ...

"SEEMS" is the right word to use...is God really far... my Darlene Cece winans said "so far yet so close" I remember sitting in the hospital ward watching my little one struggle for dear life and I thought to myself...GOD please help me how could you let this happen to me.. I have loved you from my youth, served you with all my heart, I know I am far from perfect but my love for you is undeniable. How on earth could this be happening. I hear the doctors talking amongst themselves in hushed tones, I know what the are saying but my ears are shut...I KNOW THE ALMIGHTY GOD...this is not his will.. she would not die I try to tell them, I try to convince them but its man's report against God's. In my darkest hour, even when I couldn't feel him, He was right there, you know how I know because His word says so " I would never leave you or forsake you". I Choose to have faith and not fear, whatever the devil had planned God's promises su...

Today is mothers day... As I look back to the happenings of the past months, I have only one thing in my heart: Gratitude. Gratitude to God for his unfailing love for me, especially the times when I felt so alone and so forsaken. God never left me, He never left my side.. I could feel his arms around me, I could hear his voice speaking to me, telling me how much he loved me, reminding me of how good his plans for me are.. Gratitude to God that I am still a mother to such a beautiful child ,gratitude to God that every time she looks at me my heart wells up with joy. Gratitude that despite all she has been through she can still smile, a smile that lights up a room and leaves such an impression on any heart. Gratitude to God that my marriage is still solid strong. The challenges have made us closer and stronger, Gratitude to God that am still so in love with my husband...Gratitude that what would have easily destroyed our home God is using to bless and bind us toget...

DEAR READER, Welcome to my blog... God laid it in my heart to pen my thoughts down and write about my unique journey of faith, hope and trust in God's unchanging word. As I let God direct my thoughts, I know you would be blessed, inspired, motivated and above all, your faith in God would be stirred. The just shall live by their faith: Habk 2:4 this blog is hinged on this scripture and I know that because I have faith in God's word nothing shall be impossible to me. Read on and be blessed.